I woke up this morning and saw that I had received a text from Niles in the middle of the night (1am!). It didn’t wake me up, but it said “Plan to go to Hooligans after Lost, it’s open mic night.” That was very clever of Niles, because he knows that I don’t like doing things at the spur of the moment…. I always back out and say “I’m tired…” or something. But now that he warned me ahead of time, I’m obligated to go. It’s also funny that he didn’t ask me to go to Hooligans, he just told me that we were going. Clever, clever Niles.

I babysat for many hours today. It was slightly warm, so the two boys were playing outside. I grabbed the little baby, bundled her up, put her in a stroller, and joined them outside. I only lasted about 10 minutes because it was so cold!

While I was babysitting, I finished a book! I think that I had read over 200 pages today! It was a book about a woman journaling her first year as a mother. She was a writer already, and someone suggested that everyday, she write down something that she noticed about her son. I really enjoyed this book, because I love reading journals and blogs. She was a single mother, but luckily, she had family and wonderful best friends who stopped by and helped her.

As of this moment, this book convinced me that I do not want children. She talked about all the pain she was in after child birth, how her stomach was still so large (even though she lost 20 of the 25 pounds she had gained) that it just laid next to her in bed. The baby was also very colicky at first, and she stated how she understood how people could abuse their children. She went from loving him one day, to absolutely hating him the next. However, she never regretted having him, which is good. She barely got to sleep every night, and it just sounded so awful. She had people who came over to visit with the baby, but not once did she talk about how someone took the baby so she could sleep. I think if it was me, and the baby didn’t need food, need to be changed, or anything like that, and it was just crying to be a pain in the ass, I would put it in the furthest room, and I would sleep in the room on the complete other side of the room. I would say “You can cry all you want baby, but I can’t hear you! Nah nah!” I mean, really, I don’t think the kid would be in any danger, right? It would just be super annoying!

I don’t think that I want to have kids, because it sounds awful. Plus, her one friend said it wasn’t even easier with a husband, because he would complain about dinner, and not getting to have sex, and other stuff. In fact, she said, I think it is worse. I would, however, go over to my best friend’s house all the time to hang out with her, and sit on the couch while she nursed and watched TV. But I would also, most definitely, take the baby away so my friend could nap. I would take the baby to a park, or even take him home with me for the night. Whatever my friend wanted. I would let my friend take a bath or shower, and then relax in bed. And I would keep the screaming child as far away as the mom wanted me too.

I just want cats. Cats can be annoying too, but cats can be locked in the basement.